Lonely Heart

My heart is what you asked for.

but how can I give you something that I don't have?

I remember having one a long time ago, but you know how that story goes.

I really wanted you to be the one to have it and hold it as if it were yours

but its been gone for so long that I don't even remember what it feels like anymore.

I can try and give you as much as I can

but where will this all go

I know I sound clustered and my words seem out of place...but

finding my heart is like being in a race without a pace.

Well now your gone

and its all my fault.

All I can really say is I'm sorry

that I fell apart.

Its a whole year later

and I'm glad we still keep in touch

but I wanted to tell you something

I found my heart!

just this past month

and you'll never believe how

I was going through an old shoe box

and stumbled across a few old letters

and read them to myself

got to the end and realized

they were from YOU!

You see it wasn't that I didn't have a heart

I just couldn't see you for you

and reading those letters made me realize

that it was you

My heart is you!

I know your happy with someone new

but you just needed to know

that I've finally grown as a person

and did what I had to

So now that you know and I know

I can move on too!

Thank you for loving me

and remaining true.

Thank you for making realize that this

lonely heart can love too!

Finally I can BREATHE!!

You are so confusing! This is what I am told by different guys that I have come across that dont understand my logic for being single.Here's the thing, it's not that I don't want a relationship because I do...I mean what female/young lady/young woman doesn't. I just personally haven't met that right guy to change my mind. Everytime I do feel as if I may have picked a winner it turns out that he's a loser by his own default. I use to believe that maybe I was possible doing something wrong until I thought about my past relationships and realized that I was always in a 90/10. Which is the worst situation to be in. For those of you that may be wonder what a 90/10 is...its when one gives 90% of themselves and the other only 10%. I'm always the 90!I have always been a "Cater 2 U" lady and always felt like it was my job to keep my man happy even if I had to scarifice my own happiness. Well I'm most definitly done with the 90/10...if your a guy and you can't meet me half way than your not the one for me. Everytime a guy asked me what's my type I would always say I don't have one, so that I could find out the real them instead of them posing to be someone or something they felt I wanted them to be.Well I'm done with that I'm not stepping out of that box anymore my type is an intelligant individual with street smarts and book smarts. I want a guy that can take me to a higher level of mental stimulation. I want a guy that's a hustler, NOT A DRUG DEALER but someone thats consistantly thinking of different ways to earn money. No I'm not a gold-digger but I'm not taking care of someone that CANNOT take care of me..those days are OVER and GONE. I want a guy that I can travel out of state and out of the country with, someone that's not afraid to try new things...Someone that I can just lay in the bed with and talk for 3-4 hours at a time, getting to no each other more and more each day. A guy that'll enjoy take out and a movie, someone I can introduce to the family. Someone that will appreciate me for what I have to offer and know that he'll get the same in return.I'm through with JUMP OFF relationships, if your not talking long term than you can beat it.I will no longer settle for less..if he aint the best then he'll have to move over for the rest!And to all my LADIES & FELLAS i suggest you do the same...re-evaluate somethings and people in your life and see how many you eliminate!

Error of Your Ways.

Sitting down thinking about all that could've been.

Wondering if there will ever be an us again.

Loving you was the hardest thing I ever done,

But letting you go was the best thing that I needed

and I'm glad it's done.

See you were the one doing wrong

and I played the dumb role

but Karma is a female and that bitch

loves to see you pay for what you've done

times 2.

You could've lightened the blow if your feelings would

have been sincer

but it's way past to late for I'm sorries, my dear.

I hope from me you learn the errors of your ways

then perhaps love will come your way one day.

That day just isn't TODAY!

Died of a Broken Heart!

I once died of a broken heart
but was reborn again through my faith and hope in love.

He stabbed me straight in the heart with his harsh words and decitiful eyes,

he played me so well I could never tell when he told me a lie.

But then I decided to snoop one day and

the things I read, I would never say.

That day my heart shattered and

the pieces dropped to my knees.

I began to walk and the pieces cut my feet.

So really the whole time is wasn't you

it was me.

Because I gave you my all

and didn't receive anything.

Next time I'll be more careful

You'll see

because I already let you break me once

I can't let it happen again.

Maybe one day you'll realize I was the greatest thing that happened to you

but by that time I'll already have someone new.

And then you too will know what it feels like to

Die of a Broken Heart!